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(no subject) [Jan. 8th, 2010|08:59 pm]
Nicklots Lim
:o)
if last night was all a dream,
it was a damn bloody good dream.
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2010 [Jan. 2nd, 2010|10:03 pm]
Nicklots Lim
Happy new 2010 year everyone!
hope everyone fulfills their new year resolution with a snap of their fingers.
for me, i just wished everyday was like 1st january 2010, that would be awesome :o)
it was like everything was already planned out, just waiting for each step to pass. Hard decision leaving you, i was sincerely worried throughout the night and day that the wolf may have eaten you up but then, things got better later. random question lead to spontaneity lead to a very lazy laid-back but very much enjoyed day.

I watched as the light of dawn break peeped through the blinds onto your perfect features and clear skin. I would never forget that beautiful picture, that beautiful you..
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(no subject) [Dec. 25th, 2009|01:17 am]
Nicklots Lim
Woke up this morning, blew my nose as usual(because of hayfever) and got a freaking hell of a shock when both noses produced bloody red mucus, in balls.

i think im too heaty, howwww?
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(no subject) [Dec. 18th, 2009|12:00 am]
Nicklots Lim
Do your shopping at Shop Stylista!
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Not a big fan of "Goodbyes" [Dec. 6th, 2009|11:45 pm]
Nicklots Lim
Parents are going back tomorrow, getting mixed feelings. Good thing is I will be working, so dont have to send them off to the airport, otherwise the waterworks might start again, and i hate that. i think it will really set in when i come home tomorrow night and mum/dad wouldnt be at the door waiting for me, no dinner/breakfast prepared for me, i'll have to settle everything by myself.

sometimes we've been living in such bliss we tend to take things for granted.

i guess i'll have to focus on the other side, that i'll have more freedom and time for myself.

sighhhhhhhhhhh```````
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The shoulder aches [Dec. 5th, 2009|11:25 pm]
Nicklots Lim
Sigh, sometimes i really hate how my mind works. First you see, okay. Then you see again, you like. Then when you like, you want to see more. After you see more, you start to hear things. The more things you hear, the worse it gets for you. All those things that I had wished will happen were just a figment of my imagination.
"Many men want to bingbing her", why are they ALWAYS popular straight poo yings?
After all those, you want to stop the liking, to save yourself some heartache
but the heart does not want to.

dejavu i say.
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Herald Sun Nov 27 2009 Friday ("Driver ruined my life" - Elissa Hunt) [Dec. 2nd, 2009|01:54 pm]
Nicklots Lim
"I remember 18, that first year I saw myself as a man.
I remember running for my country, the first time I represented Australia.
I broke my personal best that day. I remember fainting at the end of the race.
I remember feeling tall, strong, healthy.
Now I feel weak.
I know fear now, doubt, isolation, anxiety, fear of death, loss of hope.
I know hospitals, doctors, medicines; I know these are my partners in life now.
I was awarded $350,000 to replace the $2.5million I would have earned in my working life that was cut short. I feel cheated.
I would cut off both my legs to be a father, that's the sacrifice I would make.
I saw myself in the mirror the other morning. I barely recognised the body I saw. I don't like my body now, it doesn't work. It's fat, ugly, I can't feel it.
The fear of death visits me every day.
Every time my weakened body succumbs to a new infection, I wonder if this is the one that will end it. I think about dying a lot these days.
I remember that 18-year-old. As I am hoisted out of my chair into my bed, I struggle to think those memories were ever of me.
I don't just remember what I lost, I see it, experience it, many times a day.
I feel it every time a support worker tells me of their life, of going to a party, going to the footy.
I find myself watching as they walk out my gate, and get on with their life.
I envy them. And I am left alone to remember what I have lost."

-Justin Stevenson


Treasure everything u have, and everyone around u now. Anything could be lost within a split second, and then it would be too late.
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(no subject) [Nov. 30th, 2009|11:41 pm]
Nicklots Lim
:o)
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(no subject) [Nov. 29th, 2009|11:42 pm]
Nicklots Lim
your beautiful face makes my heart go aflutter
i could see you everyday and be your butler
if you would let me into your heart
oh dear lord that would be some good luck!



(damn, watching Mr.Deeds made me alot cornier than i already am!)
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Very unlucky day. [Nov. 25th, 2009|12:17 am]
Nicklots Lim
My bloody wallet and SG mobile phone was stolen today at work.

Wallet consists of all the usual cards which takes a freaking longgggg time to replace. Bank took freaking 20mins to connect my call so that i can freeze the card, driver licence requires a credit card for replacement but my card's frozen, how to use?!?! medicare needs the medicare card number[written on the card itself] to log on the website to report loss, HOW RETARDED IS THAT ZOMG I JUST REALISED!!???

And there was probably only maximum AUD75dollars and SGD50dollars in the wallet, you poor thing, fcukwit.

Then the SG mobile phone, the one i carry with me every single day wherever i go regardless whether theres an sms or not, just so that i wouldnt miss a text from you. The mobile phone that stores my very first sim card, where i still have a sms or 2 dated all the way back in year 2000. My source of connection from sg, and you fcukwit took it away! you cant even use it idiot, it's password protected so once its switched off, u wouldnt be able to use it. PLUS i cancelled the connection in sg so the sim card can no longer be used, which means u'll have to take the card out to use the phone. and what happens when u take the sim card out? the phone switches off! congratulations fcukwit, you poor thing!

just for that few freaking dollars, you cause me so much trouble, i've had that birthday wallet for years, it had a hole in it but i couldnt bear to change it.

i miss my phone and wallet :o(

yup so we left the back door open today as usual, boss opened it bigger than usual coz we were doing rebonding and she wanted ventilation, i was pretty happy with the air circulation after both front and back doors were open today. i put my phone on the usual spot, on the ledge next to my lunch bag n keys. my wallet was carelessly put in the side pocket of my bag, i didnt zip it coz i had to take it out twice to get some stuffs[my fault, really.] if ive zipped it, the fcukwit would only have taken the phone and boss's wallet. at 5:30pm i was eating some yoghurt and i remembered checking my phone for messages. THEN, haircuts came in and i became busy till 6:45pm, went to toilet to clear bowels and came out 6:55pm ready to leave. took my belongings, walked to front of salon, wanted to take wallet out so that i can buy Imperial fish on the way home and realised i couldnt find me wallet.

Thought perhaps it dropped onto the shelf coz i didnt put it in properly, went to check shelves and bag again a couple of times before it dawned on me someone had pinched it. THEN i realised, OMG my phone is missing too, ZOMG someone stole them. Told boss, she checked her bag and realised her wallet got stolen too.

FARRRRRRRRR OUT man i tell you, so annoying.

then i rang the police, took them freaking 45mins to ring me back and told me they cant come around now because all the vans and in use, they havent got a van to come to the salon.

WTH.................

so she gave me a choice of doing the statement over the phone or wait for the next available van, which when i asked how long its going to take, she kept saying she doesnt know, she really cant predict when they'll be free because something else might pop up again and then they'll have to go to that somewhere

WTF....................

seriously, if half the population is attempting murder at the other half of the population at the same time, what are they going to do?! half is being kind, im thinking not even 1/4.

so anyhow, because i managed to freeze my credit card and managed to get mum to ring M1 to cancel my sim card, theres nothing else i can do but to sit and wait hoping that the fcukwit will throw me wallet on the ground somewhere, some other kind soul picks it up, sees my address/phone number and contacts me with the wallet and my identification cards.

i was feeling pretty low then, chan mai-mee dahng [i have no money], seriously so i wanted to go see me eye candy and hopefully lift my spirits abit. but after driving all the way there, she wasnt around! how unlucky is that? now u know how shitty it is for me today, sighhhh. im just glad i did a really nice cut + colour for Mink today, ego booster. didnt exactly have a nice night last night either, dreamt i had a bald patch at the back of my head. aiyarhhhh, hopefully larb gai, seafood noodle salad and chicken cashew nuts tomorrow will lift my spirits =/

oh yes btw, i hope you win the lottery tonight[i just bought the ticket this morning!] so that u will stop stealing and causing agony to innocent people.
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